It was a bad, bad week -- on just about every front. I know in my gut that everything is going to be fine. But it was just five days together where the confluence of every thing that could go wrong did go wrong.
Caroline is doing horribly in school. She is quite capable, but she is self-sabotaging. And I know that in some way I feed that, but I can't quite figure out how. My former husband showed his assholish, cruel self in extreme ways. A hateful email is just part of it. I really think we would have been so much better off is the poor man had died. Work is a bear. An absolute ridiculous no win situation and the pay is ridiculous to boot.
Then Caroline asked to go to Starved Rock yesterday, which we did. It was a glorious day ( I'm an old lady using that term) But we left saying never again. It's contrived nature -- cement trails in part. We both miss California and New England for it's true wilderness. We both agreed that Wisconsin is probably the place to head to.
Today is smiling, I hope. I have friends coming over for dinner which means I can cook, which I find relaxing. I will now go wake up Caroline to get her started and then go to church and give thanks that at least the Taliban isn't next door. (I do have a lot to be grateful for -- more than most.)