This is a huge year for me. I have a significant birthday coming up in April and I am beginning to think about what I want the rest of my life to look like.
I would describe the first half of my life as accelerated soul growth. My curriculum thus far has been rigorous and I have looked at everything as lessons. Most I've passed -- some with flying colors, others, well, by the skin of my teeth. And then, I suspect there are some I must repeat.
But here's what I would like to accomplish before my birthday:
- Lose some more weight (Isn't that every middle-aged woman's wish?)
- Meet a nice man to have dinner with every once in a while...maybe it could lead to romance?
- Get my daughter on a better academic path
- Meditate daily
- Do a better job of seeing the good in every one
- Save money
- Throw a party
These are fine objective, but I need to figure out what the rest of my life will be in more existensial terms. Will I transition or transcend the now. Transition means passing from one phase to another, at least in terms of one's life. Transcendence means becoming enlightening, going beyond the ordinary.
I want transcendence. I want to experience extraordinary things. I want go beyond and push pass the fear and the self imposed rules and leave freely. I want to feel all the wonderful things that there are to feel. I want to fall madly, yet sensibly, in love with all that this planet has to offer. I want to step off the edge of the cliff-- with a parachute. I know this is all a real possibility, but it's a question of how brave I am.